Dreams and Visions Part I

I had this weird dream last night that awoke my spiritual senses. I came from work and left our gate unlocked. As I was about to lay down to sleep, a man appeared at the door and asking for something I don't understand. I didn't allowed him though to enter the house. He disappeared. After a minute or so, I fell asleep, suddenly I am awaken by someone looking directly at me.. a man whose only desire is evil! Why can't I move? Why is he laughing at me? Why all of sudden I don't feel anything aside from fear? Am I dead? I closed my eyes and prayed to my Father in Heaven.. Then all of a sudden, I am awaken by God's grace. Hallelujah!

This is not the first time that I heard a voice as if he/she spoke to me even though I'm sleeping. Sometimes I heard voices of men talking to each other, though I don't understand what they are actually saying, I know they are talking about me. Is this part of sleep paralysis that I sometimes experience unintentionally or is it actually angels speaking to remind me of my purpose? The very first time I experienced that is when my heart longs for something other than God. I heard someone called me by name. Clear, distinct, strong, a voice of discipline and love, just like a father. I can't assure you that I heard God, but I believe it is Him. From that point in time, I go on in my spiritual walk, though I always fail, His grace move abundantly in my life. I dream dreams. Sometimes I see people suffering.. longing.. crying.. dying. I see people needing help. And it makes me feel to move in urgency. Not wasting time on things that won't glorify God. Then I'm hearing voices of encouragement, hope, and of the things that I need to repent, and those things that if I don't today regret will scorch me in the future. There were also times that even I'm awake, I hear voices singing in chorus. Like those of people singing in church, but with better melody, and higher voices.

Is this all part of hallucination? Or is actually signals from heaven that are pointing me to my destiny? ONLY GOD KNOWS.

Back to my dream yesterday night, I'm meditating about it throughout this day.. Since, it is Sunday, we went to church and the topic is about deepening your relationship with the Lord. Right now, I have a lot of burdens that makes me feel so weak. That keeps me on asking whether everything is still at the hand of God or is it just me that is trying to drive my own life. I am sure that my soul longs to worship the Lord, yet my flesh is so weak that I forgot to guard my own heart. To guard everyone around me especially my family. The devil is trying to steal away our faith, our hope, our love.. we cannot guard our life alone, we need God! Because only in His presence there is security. Being busy in God's work doesn't assure you of being secured. Sometimes in our busyness, we neglect our own guard. Then all of a sudden we feel nothing within, but cold towards the Lord. Here are three things that came up to my senses in walking faithfully in our Spiritual Walk.
1. Knowing God more and more.
2. Obeying God intentionally
3. Don't listen to the lie of the enemy, and keep in my mind that God loves you greatest.

These will be discussed on my next Blog :-) Have a great and awesome journey with the Lord!

Dearest You..

          It's been 5 years since I met you. You're just a stranger to me, and yet I chose you, hoping that I will be able to love you. I saw your ravishing beauty that makes me delighted in you. Until I face the hardships you brought in my life; those sleepless nights, less social life, headache every time I encounter problems with you, even nightmares; its as if my magnificent world turned to be a malediction. Did I made a wrong decision? I thought my best is enough, I thought I'm enough, but I realized, everything is just a pedantic act, an illusion and in reality, I really know nothing. Stringent paths confused me, and fear beseeched me to give up. Remember the day you first fail me? I'm so disappointed to myself, "what ifs" and "why me" questions occured in my head, I'm so desperate to dissipate you out of my life, but there's only one thing that continually urge me to go on, fate. I believe in the fate that I have in you. I believe in us, as I believe in the plan of the Lord. Time passed by, bewilderment slowly ceased, and faith grows in me. Though failures made our journey tedious, passion make haste of the future and counter-balancing the emotion. Those things I experienced with you, smear my heart with something I can never forget, joy. Despite of the challenges that almost knocked me down, you taught me to be strong and hope for greater things that will come our way, inculcating that everything is for my betterment. Though I don't understand this, your faith makes me stay and loving you even more. We're not yet done, and now, I realized, you're really at my side, and we will fight together. And having that in mind and in heart, being with you is one of the greatest blessing I ever had and have.. See you soonest! :-)